Hey man, take it from me: you're not close to the first person to feel like this, and you will by no means be the last. I've gone through the same shit [gramps] when I was your age [/gramps], and it passes. Chances are you have a skewed perspective on what people actually think of you, and a self-image that's definitely more negative than you deserve. You're a funny guy with obvious talent. And all those 'care-free' people around you carry around their own shit, but everyone's afraid to be an outcast, so no one shows it. So kudos for reaching out, that's an important step towards improving your situation.
It's easy for me to talk, I know. But hang in there. Focus on the positive things, and invest your energy in creating more of them, whatever they may be. You got this. And feel free to vent from time to time, it helps.
Take care dude.
MchectorII
Sorry to hear about that.I can understand how you must feel like as I’ve been through in my younger years.I was bullied a lot either for many reasons or no reason at all.I lost all my friends when they simply moved on without me or turned against me.I left school being much different and more ruined emotionally and mentally than before,something which I’m still struggling to deal with today.
And despite all that,I did learn one thing though.Life may suck at some,if not most points but they won’t last forever.No matter how much these terrible moments try to break you,keep pushing forward and maybe,just maybe things will improve and even if they don’t,just take every single minute or second of crap that you’ve endured without breaking as a middle finger to every problem Life throws at you and Life itself.If Life wishes to break you down,tell it to go screw itself by moving forward no matter how rough it can get.
If other people think less of you when you’re only being yourself,they don’t deserve you or your attention.You’re perfect the way you are and be proud of it!Don’t let some other losers change that because they don’t have the right to do that.Only you yourself know that deep down,you’re way better than what you think of yourself right now.I’m sure you’re a good person with talents and dreams.I’m sure that the last person you need right now to be beating you up when you’re already down is yourself so fight those inner voices the same way as you do for the outer ones.Ignore them by doing something you enjoy,learning a new skill or making new friends online.
In short,life can get crappy at times but so as long as we keep moving forward,there’s a chance that things will get less bad or even better.Just don’t give up now because you’re still young and have a long way to go and who knows what kind of beautiful surprises are waiting you in future.Well,that’s all I have to write and I hope things get better for you.Hang in there,I believe in you!